woman that’s married to my first cousin (stay at home mother that likes to do match making) is making me very nervous?

I have made previous posts like this in the past, but I am getting older, and life is getting very real. I come from a traditional Sephardic family, not orthodox. 12 years of yeshiva etc. shul on Saturdays. I am now 24 years old. I never wanted to have children, I knew since I was bat mitzva age- telling girls in my class I never wanted kids etc. they all wanted the big wedding and jetset husband wand have kids etc. my sister has a son over a year old and she looks miserable, plus she is expecting in a few weeks. Something tells me she didn’t want kids (it just takes one to know one). And her husband has a job where if he doesn’t log on, he can lose it. On top of that he isn’t super helpful to my sister. He doesnt seem like he wants kids bc he isnt very involved (in my opinion). Anyway, the woman thats married to my cousin has been bothering for a few years now, on and off, mostly off- she will text my mom once in a while that she has a boy for me and my mom will report the news to me. My mom is definitely on the side of my cousin. She wants me to have a boyfriend desperately. I am not one to admit to my mom that I don’t want children and never wanted them. I don’t want to tell her something that she doesn’t want to hear. I already went one date with this boy (even though I didn’t want to) bc I don’t know how to say no. I don’t see a point in dating this boy bc he most definitely wants kids anyway (I didn’t ask him, but everyone seems to want them) he is my age, a little younger. The other day, my mom wanted to see my text messages I was having with this boy- bc the my cousin messaged my mom “she wasn’t very enthusiastic when she was texting with him”, my mother asked for my phone and insisted to take photos of my screen to send to my cousin to show her that what she is saying isn’t true. But my mother is siding with my cousin, thinking it’s normal to take photos of my text messages on my phone, like I am 16. I feel very violated. I don’t even want to go out with this boy again, but he wants to. And we are going to again. He wasn’t a bad kid, he is nice, but I really don’t want kids. When my mom asks him if I want to go out with him again/ if I liked him, I give her a very short answer – “uh huh” mom: “so you’d go out with him again?” Me: “yup” I keep it short and don’t put any enthusiasm into it. I am not interested in touching anybody either. I am not a conventional Sephardic girl that wants to get married and have children. But I would like to get married some day to someone who is the right person for me. I feel like I’m my own worst enemy and I’m just going to dig a hole so deep with not saying I feel that I’m not going to get what I want in my life. This isn’t a post to offend any of you with children, but just a personal post. I am very scared for my life. I get nervous when my mom brings up my cousin when she texts about boys for me. I am too afraid to say “does she know anyone that doesn’t want kids that are around my age?” They probably don’t even exist anyway. Thanks for reading.