Trying to find a purpose in life through religion?

Hello! Shabbat shalom!

I grew up with a father who claimed to be a religious messiah. He was also very controlling and dictated every movement of my life. I’ve been estranged for about five years but I often feel directionless in life. My life purpose growing up was to obey him and fulfill his dreams and wishes. Without my him telling me what to do I don’t feel like I have a purpose in life.

I’m hesitant to turn to religion because of my experience with my father. However I heard that religion might help me find a purpose?

This post might not seem directly related to Judaism but I’ve gone to a Jewish temple for Shabbat Friday quite a few times (I’m not Jewish) and I enjoyed my time there. I felt more comfortable there because people there were friendly and weren’t pushy about trying toconvert me.