To be fair, I have done things for work that involve media, but they’re like really scrappy and a lot of the times it’s just me trying really hard to get work and I end up doing like recording and almost like radio type work, but I’m definitely not connected to anyone in publishing I have like no connections to that at all and so many random people have asked me that I always try to like be helpful and just encourage them to keep trying and it’s only occurred to me now that they might be asking me because I am Jewish person. I really don’t like thinking about the stereotypes but the more and more I come in contact with anti-Semitic rhetoric I realize that people really think that we have some power that we don’t have. It’s embarrassing, but for me, I think sometimes it almost helps me get work for people to think that I’m powerful and way that I’m not so of course her when I don’t have resources and people expect me to have certain resources that I don’t have and I need help or I need access to certain kinds of like healthcare or just basic things and they assume these Stereotypes are true and it’s really weird! It’s kind of funny, but it’s also you know not funny. I’m wondering if other people also have these experiences where people think that you’re more powerful or connected than you are to certain kinds of media and how you manage that or what you do about that because It’s getting really awkward.
Just to note a lot of the times it’s like the fourth or fifth time that somebody’s made a comment that I finally put it together that they think that I have some power that I don’t have and to be honest with you like it’s sort of flattering and sometimes it also makes me feel like insecure like maybe I should have a kind of power that I don’t have and it makes me feel kind of bad like maybe Insecure because I don’t have what kind of stuff they are expecting me to have like certain kinds of money or certain kinds of influence or something.
I feel like I’m confessing something here by saying this, but it’s almost like the kind of antisemitism that I experience becomes this thing where I feel like I have to meet peoples crazy borderline racist expectations of me and then other times it takes a while to dawn on me that they’re actually engaging with me because they think I have some power that I don’t have which of course is hurtful when I realize it. But it also makes me feel bad for not having it! Like because I don’t just get born with some innate work of things , I feel insecure that I’m not meeting their expectations! I know it sounds ridiculous, but I’m wondering if anyone else feels the same.
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