Since posting here and the open hearts of good people who offered to pray for me, which resulted in some clarity and an idea of where this is all going – namely – working on the trauma which is huge and very deep-seated, going way back to Poland with my grandmother and her beautiful sisters, my great-grandfather and great-grandmother on my mother’s side, who were basically hugely spiritual, saintly and living the simplest of lives, but something along the way, nazis, marriage into the wrong family and upheavals of every sort landed my family of origin into not only turmoil but turmoil with a certain brand of dysfunction, to put it mildly. A lot of violence. Fast-forward, I’ve been in isolation-mode since arriving in Israel, have had no home (ever) that wasn’t rife with pain and suffering. Have moved since coming here 9 times (with complete household), my late mother actually built Hadassah hospital by raising a lot of money in the 50’s. She had one focus in life and that was Israel. It was to atone for the millions dead, for her own family that were shot, for the history that was and is unfolding. She lived and breathed Israel. That might have had an effect on my own outlook and feeling about things. I’m a bit more gestalt-oriented in that there is something unique about the Land, let me connect, let me see up front and personal and perhaps I can assist. OK – enter traumatized persona who isolates.
So, am putting out the word – I am seeking a therapist who is relational-informed. Who gets adaptive child, relational and attachment fractures, who gets complex-trauma, who can help me undo the complexities and move forward. Paying it forward. I need someone who can 1- work on a very steep sliding scale or 2 – someone here who has maasarot and would like to save someone’s life, that would be me.
DM – for particulars. Would work online or Jerusalem. This has to come into fruition. Decades of isolation is akin to the Shechina’s hiding. Enough is enough.
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