Fellow (Reform/Conservative)Jewish Women of Reddit, Have You Ever Read Torah While on your Period?

Shana Tova I’m a 16 year old female Reform Jew I’m going to be reading Torah for Rosh Hashanah, which is a first for me and something I’m very proud of and honored to do! A few days ago, I started my period. I’ve never read Torah while on my period. I know that halachically, women aren’t supposed to read Torah, and that hasn’t ever stopped me, but I’m a little bit more hesitant to do so while on my period because I feel almost as if I am “dirtying” the Torah. I’ve never felt this way before. I know that the Torah commands the isolation of menstruating women because they are unpure, and while I’ve always thought of that as a little silly, I can’t help but wonder if reading Torah on RH while on my period would somehow be worse. But then again, I feel almost ridiculous and old fashioned as I type, and hate myself for even conforming to sexist, patriarchal, outdated views of femininity. I wonder if being on my period is making me more emotionally vulnerable to self doubt and questioning myself. I’m quite certain I’m still going to read torah Monday morning (it’s not like i can bail out texting my rabbi “oh sorry can’t read torah which I promised I’d do 2 months ago cause I’m on my period can u do it instead thanks Shana Tova”) It’s an honor and I’m proud to do it, but I want to know what you all have to say regarding feelings of self doubt, unworthiness and shame. I am questioning myself, and I’m not sure whether or not to listen to my doubts. If any of you have any insight, feedback, previous experiences you’d like to share, please let me know! Thank you so much, and may you be written in the Book of Life