Can’t figure out a title, but superstition and scheduling surgery / medical procedures

I’m not really a superstitious person. I do believe in G-d, and my relationship with Judaism is…complicated (but I wouldn’t really want it any other way, and I love being Jewish). I feel absurd for even asking this question, but I could use some input, and I hope responses are made with empathy.

I know there are people who have things way worse than me, carrier a heavier load than I do, and that I’m blessed to have what I do have in my life. Sadly, good health is not one if those things.

This year has been one of the worst years on so many levels for me, but especially regarding health. I’m disabled and chronically ill. I live in chronic pain. In this past year has been literally non-stop drs appointments, procedures, tests, physical therapy, voice therapy, mental health therapy…and I’m talking at least 5 times a week, if not more, with only one week I didn’t need to leave the house for medical reasons (today alone I had 2 drs appointments plus VT).

I’m exhausted.

Today is found out I need surgery. It’s not a life or death thing B”H, but it’s absolutely something that needs to be done as soon as possible. Also, anytime you go under anesthesia, there are always risks; all surgeries carry risks that could be life or death.

Would you schedule a surgery in what has been one of the worst years of your life…or wait until after Yom Kippur, in a fresh, new year?

I’ve never felt this abandoned by G-d in my life (and that is saying a lot with what I have been through). Has anyone else ever gone through anything similar, and how did you deal / what did you decide?

Thank you for reading, and I hope everyone stays healthy and safe.