This is I think my third post in the Jewish forum. As I said before, I’m Mexican, born and raised, and I do have distant Jewish ancestry from my dad’s side. I think three generations ago. However, I was raised Catholic. Both my parents are catholic, although my dad is transitioning into Mexican folk religion. I, on the other hand, have always been a knowledge seeker. I’ve always studied history, science, philosophy, theology, geography, geology, astronomy, astrology, everything basically, since I was little. Me and my dad would watch documentaries together and stargaze at night.
Anyways, a few years ago, back in high school, junior years probably, I started feeling something towards Jews. The best way I could describe it is a tribal calling to Jews. I don’t know if that sounds offensive but it’s not meant to sound that way. Last year I entered a synagogue for the first time. It was a Saturday, so it was closed because I think you guys consider Saturday the seventh day. But I rang the bell and I was let in by the rabbi’s daughter. I went into the main chamber where the masses take place. A rabbi approached me and the first thing he said to me was, “are you Jewish?” Now, I’m light skin Mexican, I have dark hair, I do have somewhat of a Jewish nose, but still the first thing everyone in the synagogue asked me was if I’m Jewish. Why is that?
The main rabbi’s wife gave me a small tour of the synagogue and we started having a conversation about Judaism. I like going to different temples of different religions and just ask questions to learn about their beliefs. So I was having a good time with the lady. Her husband was really stand offish though and scolded me for not checking in with him when I came into the synagogue. Anyways, I went back a second time to talk to another rabbi.
What is really interesting to me is this feeling. It’s an urge towards Jews. I look at them and I feel like I belong with them. We Mexicans have a saying “la sangre llama” which means “blood calls”. This is the feeling I have. I’m not just attracted to the religious aspect, though. I created my own belief system. But i am interested in learning about the roots of Judaism, like Zoroastrianism and Babylonian theology.
What can I do with this feeling? What do you guys think about it?