Really want to do something for pesach but can’t celebrate it properly

Hi, so I have a bit of an issue on my hands.

For some background information, I am an ethnic Ashkenazi Jew who, for the longest time, has been estranged from her culture. My parents are both atheist and very anti-religion, not wanting any sort of religious symbolism or practices in their household, causing them to give up Jewish traditions due to their connections to religion.

I, however, have always held Jewish beliefs in some form or another, but due to my upbringing, it took me a long time to accept HaShem and Torah into my life. I’ve since dedicated myself to learning about my heritage, culture, religion, etc, as I feel like I was “robbed” of it.

However, one strange consequence of this is the fact that I can not celebrate holidays, follow (most of) halakha, attend synagogue, observe shabbos, etc. I’m 17 at the moment and still live with my parents, and likely will for another 1-2 years. I’ve already decided to dedicate myself to Torah study, reading about Pesach, history, working on learning Yiddish, and just general “Jewish Stuff” during this year’s Pesach & Shvues

My question is, is there anything else I can do? I obviously can’t go to a shul or a seder, especially since I can’t drive, but is there some way to make me feel more involved in this year’s celebrations without those things, any prayers I can do on my own that are relevant for this time of year, songs I can listen to, or really just anything in general so that I don’t miss out on the holiday yet again.

Thank you in advance if anybody has any advice, and !חג פשח שמח