Not jewish but

I know this might be random to some, I am from an Arab country and later started living in a european country. Through out my life i’ve been in contact with jewish people because i would travel with my mother to new york and believe it or not i had a jewish family living above us since i was a child.

I’ve always been very interested in the Jewish traditions and communities and i even know more than the average person. It excites me and makes me feel happy and i’d even go to a jewish neighbourhood here where i live to eat and just walk around (especially around holidays)

The thing is it almost makes me mourn a place and people i’ll never be able to be fully in contact with. Going to TLV for example would be very hard for me because i think the entry is hard given my nationality (it’d be hard to enter and it’ll also cause me problems where i’m from). I don’t know why i’m even writing this but it’s a small rant and something i think about every now and then.