I strive for Judaism, but I’m trapped

I’m a 17-year-old guy living in Egypt, and for the past year, I’ve been on a deep journey trying to find the truth.

I left Islam because I felt that its beliefs about the world and God didn’t make sense to me and the life of Muhammad which gave me the real idea of the materialism of Islam.

I studied Christianity in depth for 2yrs, learning about things like Soteriology, Cosmology, and christology in Christianity.But the more I studied and more reading about Christianity, its different sects, and the disagreements over the principles of God’s existence and complex nature which require difficult and illogical philosophical concepts made me realize that Christianity is the result of a historical and philosophical distortion of Western mythologies and Stoic philosophy.

And in the end, I studied Judaism for a year and could not deny my deep admiration for it, as it is a theologically simple religion and easy for anyone to understand. Since I have read the Tanakh six or seven times, studied sections of the Talmud, and learned about the history of Jewish struggles, I have been increasingly drawn to reading more about it and joining it. Considering all this time, and the fact that I was born as a circumcised Muslim male, I have essentially been following the Noahide laws.

And I hope that any rabbi will reach out to me to guide me toward a suitable solution. I also hope there is an option other than leaving my country, as that would be very difficult for me. However, even if your response suggests this as the only solution, it would still reassure me that the Almighty God is aware of my situation and watching over me.