I never feel "Jewish enough" (disclaimer: may be offensive to some readers)

I’ve been immersing myself in my local Chabad, and I’m loving the volunteering, chatting with people, and occasionally attending services or holidays. I’m cooking more kosher and Jewish foods at home, wearing a Magen David, and trying to learn at my own pace. But I can not get into the religious aspect of it and that sort of bothers me because it all feels pretend. I want community, I know I have a Jewish soul, but I’m not a believer in God. So the traditions, as interesting as they are, don’t hold meaning for me. I sit there and listen to them reading the Torah, singing the old songs, swaying, wearing certain garb, and think “Cool, my ancestors would have done this same thing” – but I don’t walk away feeling any kind of spiritual anything. I understand the importance of doing good for others, but I can’t wrap my head around why people of any religion spend so much time reading about it, praying, going through specific motions, etc. Isn’t it enough just to live a good, honest life and help others where you can?