Trying to feel comfortable about Judaism

I’m Jewish, I’m proud to be Jewish, I’m fascinated with our history and many of the traditions, I love our food, I love recognizing my traits in other Jews and vice versa. I want to dive in much deeper and finally ‘live Jewish’. But. Religion feels forced to me, even the Jewish religion. Why do we need to follow rules to mourn a certain way? To eat a certain way? To sit through services that repeat the same messages, over and over again? It all feels unnatural to me. Anyone else relate? When I’m sad, I cry. When I’m lost, I reach out. When someone’s in need, I help. When Israel hurts, I hurt. Isn’t that enough?