Question about Yom-Tov?

 Hi. Idk if this is the right place to ask this but it’s a serious question for me. Basically, i know that there is a tradition to eat meat on Yom tov. However, I’ve done some research and found that the reason for this is to bring joy in honor of the holiday. I derive no joy from meat, i actually detest it. I have considered the possibility that I have sensory ARFID (avoidant restrictive food intake disorder) and it affects me a lot around the holidays. I cannot tolerate eating meat. I’ve been told by my parents that not liking meat is ‘anti Jewish’. That it is supposed to bring everyone joy. But i don’t understand. If i hate it so much, should i really eat it on Yom-tov? I dont think i can. Is it mandatory? If so, why? Is it supposed to bring my soul joy, not my body? Is it even a Halacha or a mitzvah or is it simply a minhag? Could I fulfill it by eating something I actually enjoy, even if it’s not a universal pleasure? For context, i am a girl i dont know if that changes things, i do not have an official arfid diagnosis, i am Sephardic (my family follows the Yalkut Yosef), and we don’t have a rabbi atm so im asking this question here. Because arfid is such a new thing in the medical world, only formally recognized as of the early 2000s, there is not much i could find on its relation to Judaism. But i refuse to believe that Hashem would be angry with me over something i cannot control and i dont think He’d want me to drive myself crazy over some sort of enjoyment i dont even feel.