Need Help Finding Myself

Hi everyone,

I grew up celebrating Hanukkah and Christmas. I wasn’t taught any religion. My Saba and Savta have since become quite conservative Jews and I have learned about the religion and culture from them. I recently found out that my family (some lived, some died) were victims of the Holocaust. I’m trying to connect to this piece of me and understand who I am. I’ve joined Hillel etc and become quite proud of who I am. I’m more confused on the religious aspect of things. I have no idea where to start. I’m in the dark about so much Jewish practice and I feel very left out because all my friends learned this as kids. Any advice?