Loss of faith – in people. Hurting

Been exposed to some very evil abusive people unfortunately at same time as a lot of the increase in hard times for Jewish people and women. I’m a Jewish woman so bad timing I guess. The culmination is making it hard… I know we’ve been through much worse but personally, I have not. It stings to lose faith in people, to witness and experience hate in personal relentlessly cruel manners by people I’d have trusted or expected to be reasonable or decent or just baseline respectful or honest. And it’s bad. Won’t go into details but it’s a sociopath level evil and then that is further exposing me to just a host of evil people and then that exposes me to the bad in average people via vulnerability and just on going torture.

That along with world events – it’s a tough time. Being trapped by abusers… I want to have faith. My faith is so important to me but a huge part of my faith was always also about tikkun olam, and for me, that came with a love and faith in others. How can I see a way forward with such evil seemingly everywhere?

Thanks