looking for guidance: self-harm and tattoos in judaism

**tw for mentions of self-harm/cutting, although i’ve recovered now

hi, i’m a jewish older teen girl, and while i don’t practice judaism or go to shul super often, my jewish heritage and the lessons and wisdom from judaism mean a lot to me and i am very close to my jewish identity. so, because of that, i value jewish rules, but am not the most studied/knowledgeable about them, so i’m coming here for guidance.

i’ve struggled with mental health for a lot of my life. i’ve recovered a lot now and haven’t self harmed in years, but i used to cut my skin and i have many scars. as i’ve been doing research on the jewish laws against tattoos, i have seen that there are laws against self-mutilation, and it has made me feel very guilty for my self-harming past. is what i have done against jewish law? and if so, what can i do? will there be any consequences? do you think that G-d would understand? sorry if these are ridiculous things to ask, i just need some comfort and guidance.

thank you so much for taking the time to read this.