Jewish mystical relationship

I would like to connect with Jews and others who love our G-d who is One, of Torah, with all our heart, soul and might, to talk about personal experiences of mystical relationship (or what is known mostly in other traditions as “spiritual awakening”. I don’t expect these conversations to happen fast or indeed to be easy because there are many taboos on discussing mystical relationship, some of which I believe are in place for good reason and others are unfortunately oppressive.
By way of a little bit of background, I am 48 years old, female and I am coming from a tradition of understanding (or being given) Torah through mystical relationship — i.e. I am a mystic — and would find inspiration from Rabbi Nahman from Uman. I’m not within a formal Jewish community and halakhically it appears that I am a non-Jew.