I don’t know how to be Jewish.

I wasn’t raised Jewish, but I am Jewish. I don’t know how to LIVE Jewish. I have a few struggles going on here.

The first is within myself: I don’t think I believe in G-d, and that’s obviously a big part of Judaism.

The second is where I live: I’ve tried to connect to my local synagogue and JCC but I’m in a smaller town and it hasn’t worked out for various reasons. The synagogue charges A LOT to join. The synagogue charges a lot to attend special occasions, etc. The JCC doesn’t respond to messages. It just doesn’t feel like a “community” here as much as an impersonal business plan.

So what do I do next? Please be nice, I know I’m a bit ignorant but I want to learn.