Title I had a non religious streak for a while back (encouraged by an older siblings) from ages 9-15. During that time I: 1) ate on Yom Kippur- my mother misunderstood my dad’s instructions and told me it’s fine to eat on the way to neilah ( I was above bat mitzvah)
2) I was hungry and I saw my other siblings eating so I ate a handful of Cheerios (above bat mitzvah)
It should be noted that neither of these times was I aware of the punishment for eating on Yom Kippur nor did I plan to do it again afterward.
3) I ate chametz on pesach. Again, above bat mitzvah, also encouraged (orchestrated even) by my older sibling. As in she bought the Starbucks cake pop for me. I won’t lie and say I didn’t feel peer pressured, and I’m not sure if this is important but I was suicidal at that point so the idea of karet would not have stopped me had I been thinking about the consequence at the time.
I’ve gotten better now and I have been working to practice Orthodox Judaism (I keep Shabbat and kosher, none of the above two transgressions, try to daven daily etc) but those three have been weighing on my mind and the thought of karet and what I’ve done has been plaguing me for a very long time. Is there anything I can do? Will teshuva even help me??
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