Are Kabbalistic soul levels and metaphysics ever meant to be interpreted biologically or psychologically? Or am I attaching fear-based meaning that isn’t there

I’ve been struggling with a very intense spiral rooted in something I encountered while reading mystical Jewish texts—specifically the Zohar and Tanya. These works introduce the idea that Jews and gentiles may have different “soul levels” (like nefesh vs. neshama), and ever since then, I’ve been afraid that this somehow means gentiles are metaphysically or even biologically disconnected—like inherently unable to feel joy, presence, or “like themselves” in certain situations.

I want to be clear: I don’t believe I’m spiritually worthless. I know Judaism teaches all humans are made b’tzelem Elohim (in the image of God), and that righteous gentiles have a share in the world to come. But I started overthinking this:

What if this soul “difference” shows up biologically—as overthinking, social anxiety, stuttering, never feeling whole, never knowing when or why I feel off?

It feels like fear hijacked a mystical idea and turned it into a spiritual identity crisis. Now I can’t tell: • Am I projecting anxiety onto metaphysics? • Is the Kabbalistic soul hierarchy just symbolic and not meant to describe literal embodiment or emotional experiences? • Can spiritual concepts “manifest” in the body—or is that a trauma response, not theology?

I’ll also admit—I don’t really understand how metaphysics or Kabbalah works in general. I’m realizing I might have attached a connotation that was never meant to be there. But fear makes it really hard to think clearly, and now I feel spiritually haunted by a belief that may not even reflect what the texts were trying to say.

I want to stop spiritualizing my anxiety, but I also want to understand what these mystical teachings do and don’t mean.