Any young divorcees, preferably modern orthodox/orthdodox want to share their experience with me?

For context we’ve been married a year and a half, together 4+ years. I’m considering getting divorced, and honestly if I could just snap my fingers and it would be over and everything would go back to normal, I’d do it. I don’t know how I could deal with the shame and embarrassment. I don’t know how I could disappoint my family like that. I don’t want to handle people asking me why or acting differently around me, feeling pity, etc. My parents spent a lot of money on our wedding and I would feel so bad about that. My whole community and family was there, and I can’t face all those people. Even worse, I dont want to be “damaged goods”. It’s so risky getting divorced knowing that I’ll have such a hard time finding someone else. I don’t want anyone to argue that I’ll be okay in that regard, because the stigma exists whether we want it to or not.