What do these experiences mean?

You see everything. It all breaks down in front of you the essence the air itself a complex design. Pulled into the void ~/~you gain momentum locked forward only slowing to what seems a lone star” A build up energy BUZZ then Split perception of conscience reality that is very real, From the complexity/intensity of the journey, to the core Confidence it’s as if I left family 4 war screams even as I motion to darkness from the presence of the source it was pure oblivion as I slowed from the journey of eternity. It was scary I was fully aware as I passed a few different stages the final stage being the light. it was like liquid light a reflection I felt like people were inside this source it was symmetry but as I glimpsed back from the darkness it was screaming reaching for me even before I wake