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Want to reconnect with heritage, but unsure about converting (and trying to not be a chud about it)

Hi all. Apologies in advance for how long & rambling this is going to be. I wanted to ask some advice about possibly reconnecting with my Jewish heritage, but I’m also not sure if I want to convert. Throwaway account for privacy. Some background first:

My grandparents left from Poland in 1939, and came to the US claiming to be Catholics. Thing is, they spoke Yiddish around the house pretty liberally, and would always cook a lot of traditional Ashke dishes (latkes, babke, rugelach, etc). And our “”Easter dinner”” always included a mandatory viewing of the movie “The Ten Commandments”. They never attended mass, and did not practice rosary or anything similar. They also sang “Hava Nagila” at my parent’s wedding.And my grandfather would always shut down any conversation about Poland or their history, getting (very understandably) emotional. Over time, I also noticed that the way they taught religion didn’t fit with usual Christian philosophy; for example, the advice my grandmother would give was “focus on what you can do here and now, don’t sit around and sing about being saved.”

At the time, I did not recognize these things as belonging to Ashke culture — my grandfather would just say they were Polish traditions, and we would take his word for it. Since then, I’ve had a little bit of an identity crisis? Not anything crazy, but I don’t know how to feel. I kind of do want to know more, but I’m also a practicing Christian (albeit a misfit one — I still hold to the way my grandparents taught me, and often disagree with people at my church over religious philosophical issues). I’m interested in partipating in cultural events, but I’m uncertain about converting, because I’m not sure if I want to give up my Christian beliefs 100%, and I’m fairly sure that would be a requirement for conversion.

So I suppose my questions boil down to: Do you guys think that I’m correct that they were Jewish? How would I possibly go about learning more about the faith (aside from the large amount of internet research I’m still doing)? Is it okay to reach out about these things if you aren’t certain yet? I don’t want to impose myself on an already marginalized community, and I know that my experience is going to be radically different because I’ve been Christian all these years. I don’t know if I want to leave my faith, but I can’t help but feel like something is missing. I’ve read the sub’s post about conversion, but it’s mostly moreso for people who are absolutely certain about it. Any advice or input would be dearly appreciated, and thank you for taking the time to read this (way too long) post.

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