too depressed to go to shul

I tried being active in my Jewish community and doing shabbat every weekend. But I’m just a single guy and its mostly families at the shul. It makes me feel really lonely . I broke up with this Jewish girl and it just makes it even more painful. Also I don’t know how to speak or read Hebrew. It makes me feel dumb and illiterate. I’m just a college student , I don’t have any money to donate. I don’t really see the point of all of it. I don’t feel very Jewish. I’m tired of trying to be religious and some of my non-jewish friends start judging me and treating me different. I didn’t even know about shul until I was like 26, I feel like if g-d wanted me to have a Jewish lifestyle I would have been raised differently.