The only thing my (very orthodox) parents talk about is how the world is ending and going to destruction, and how coronavirus is going to wipe out humanity, and its really really stressing me out

im 15 and go to chabad all girls school and my parents are EXTREMELY religious.

all shabbat, all week, for months, the only conversation topic they speak about is how in a few years the world is going to be done and destroyed completely by some sort of disaster and its going to happen very soon. because everyone is gay (yes my dad says all gay people burn in hell. i dont believe in that, hes stupid) and because no one has morals and because the world sucks and everyone is evil.

he says in a few months were going to be trapped in the house and were going to be taken out of school and humanity will be wiped out. and that moshiach is coming and the world is going to be doomed and destroyed completely.

then he says world war three is coming and that its a sign that moshiach is here, and that all the jews in the usa are going to be under such horrible conditions or whatever that were all going to be forced to go to israel.

and everytime i talk about anything whether it be me wanting to go out in a pair of jeans or lgbt people or whatever hes like ‘oh all women are sluts with no modesty and soon the world is going to end and everyone will be begging on their knees praying to god and soon theyre all going to be wiped out. and then my moms like yes and she starts laughing and shes like all these people dont know whats coming for them. theyre going to have horrible lives

it really really stresses me because i just want to live my life first without worrying about incoming doom all the time. and it kinda crushes all my plans and dreams for the future because he makes it seem like my generation is destined to be destroyed and i just want to live my life. i want to go to college and whatever and just live but i cant cause i keep thinking the world is ending

and everyones always like ‘moshiach moshiach please come aahh i hate golus moshiach come right now’ like WHY? let people live without this moshiach dude. can i live first and then he can come? im actually just mad. whenever they start talking about how the world is done for i just close my ears and distract myself

when im older im not keeping shabbat, kosher, or tznius, and i dont want to marry a jew. at least not a religious one. and theyre obsessing over how the inheritance is going to my sisters and that theyre never going to talk to me again and that im not going to have any money and im going to live on the streets.

CAN I LIVE

this is probably stupid but idk what to believe anymore so is it true