Reward for those who overcome the urge to kill themselves?

I’ve struggled with this urge every day for months now. It’s really intense. Very few things are keeping me. One of them is thinking about my reward in the world to come for not giving up and choosing to keep living despite the suffering, and thinking about the punishment waiting for me if I do give in.

I’m living for the hope of a better future for me if I bear down and make it through. I just have to hold on

It’s an everyday struggle