Before I begin I would like to say that I have severe depression and a little bit of anxiety… So I noticed over time, I would feel very depressed and anxious about so many things (video games, school etc), and while i would feel “happy” i would just feel so sad and like nothing on the inside. but on shabbot i feel genuinely happy, like a switch just turned on in my brain to not feel any sadness. today was ok i guess, but after around 20 minutes of the shabbot night, i started to feel happy, like happiness in being alive, and just being grateful for everything and actually feeling normal for once. maybe this is what its like to be normal without any mental health disorders?
How do I stop this cycle?