I’m just defeated. As if it couldn’t be any fucking harder for us, they’re giving our children to goddamn Christians now?
CPS removed her when she was a baby. I called them, I am not a bad mom. I told them that we’re Jewish. She’s a Jewish baby. She’s not actually a baby anymore, and she’s being adopted. By Christians. Who are changing her name that I meticulously picked out. Full of our heritage.
I can’t explain being Jewish to her. What that means to us. I just have to hope that when she’s an adult she wants to come home.
This is a whole new grief. I seriously can’t cope.
I don’t expect anyone will be able to relate to me, but maybe theres someone who was adopted and eventually came back to their roots? Or something?
I dunno. Wishful thinking I guess.