I wrote the conversion essay but its too long

So, my beit din is approaching, and my rabbi asked me for an essay. I am sure you all know of “the essay.” What was my spiritual life like before this process and why I want to be a jew.

I have been actively not writing anything for a week, because I didn’t have the words and didn’t want to force anything. I was a lit major in UG lol. But today, they came! I ended up ranting for 9 pages about why I left Islam and why I think being a black queer Jewish woman in the south is the way to go lol

if you’re interested have at it. here is the link.

i’ll trim it up to the essential bits before sending it over bc 9 pages without pay is unfair work lol