I was raised entirely secular and have never davened before this week. My mother took me to Shabbat services when I was very young but remember barely any prayers (really only the Shema to be honest). Recently I have staring becoming more religious. I davened for the first time in my life a couple days ago and I really enjoyed it.
But unfortunately I am very slow at reading Hebrew and don’t know any of the cantillation/melodies which makes it a drag to pray in Hebrew. Also seeing as I don’t understand Hebrew yet (learning), I have been doing it in English as I thought that was best.
However I would much prefer to listen to a chazzan say the prayers while I read along in Hebrew and English. I have not been able to find any app like this and unfortunately nearly every app I’ve tried so far as been broken, not helpful or just not what I’m looking for.
I’ve also tried listening on YouTube while reading along separately, but that doesn’t work too well and I can’t find many great videos.
Honestly I’m not finding as much enjoyment when I pray only in English and Hebrew takes me forever. If I don’t figure out a solution I may not continue to daven, even though I very much want to.
To be clear, I’m looking for something like this app but a siddur, or at least similar to that app. Do any of you know of something like that?
Also does anyone else here daven in English? Do you feel the same way I do? Is it even acceptable to do it in English?
Thank you very much and I hope you had a good Shabbat