I called on the name of God in my dream tonight

I just woke from a dream where I killed my brother. My brother violated me as a child.

I don’t remember if I murdered him, or if it was self defense, but I think I incidentally killed his wife as well in the process. In the dream I was shot in the neck, so when I was arrested, I was taken to a hospital and handcuffed to the bed. While the doctors were attending to me, I cried and called apon the name of God for forgiveness, and that’s the moment I woke up.

Side note: Before I was arrested, I said goodbye to everyone I know, but strangely, I called my ex girlfriend of 7 years who I’ve known the most in my life, and she did not answer.

Please forgive me. I have sinned terribly against you.