I’m a fairly typical Bais-Yaakov-educated woman in my low 20s.
I am very likely going to break my engagement to the most wonderful person in the next few days. It’s complicated exactly why, but long story short, I feel heavy anxiety whenever we’re together and we don’t have anything to talk about. Still, I love him. I just can’t get married to him. Yes, I spoke to a rav and psychologist.
I am really hurting. I will miss him. I am envisioning myself single for at least the next few years, with its loneliness, marginalization within the frum community, and feeling of having no place to belong. I so badly want to build a family.
He will be completely devastated.
Does anyone have any chizuk to offer? The sadness is overwhelming.