I ended up “turning the other cheek” I guess. But I’m still upset, these were folks I reached out and helped with charity, which I don’t regret but kind of feel taken advantage of? I sometimes have an issue if anger and now am stuck wondering if I was too angry, if I did not say the right words, if I was not protective enough of my property. Lately I have been trying to be more religious and of that I wonder is it maybe a test.. and then if I think this way I wonder if I am a lunatic or crazy. What is to be done.. I don’t want to be a doormat and it must be wrong to get in a fist fight. I feel like I ruined my shabbat ruminating on this..