Yikes. Even as an anonymous stranger on the internet, this feels vulnerable.
For a few years now, I’ve wanted to explore conversion to Judaism. I haven’t, because there is no Jewish community where I live – I am moving away next year to a place where there is one, and part of the reason for that is that I can’t take wondering about this any longer.
I am however in a committed relationship with another non-Jew, and things are getting serious – we’re talking about marriage soon. Would that mean the end of any possibility of me converting one day, in any denomination? I know that Orthodox Jews will tell me it’s not possible, and won’t accept a conversion in another denomination. I am interested to know whether Conservative (which I am most drawn to) or Reform would take a similar view.
It feels not-so-great to be torn between this irrational yet implacable yearning, and the one person who has truly loved me for who I am.