So, context: I’m בעלת תשובה, my mother is Jewish but non-practicing, and my father is Christian, and my parents are divorced. I’m the only observant Jew in my family.
My father spoke to me today and is now (this is new to me) apparently very stressed out that I might be going to hell because I don’t believe in Jesus. He doesn’t understand anything about Judaism at all, but knows that we don’t believe Jesus is mashiah, and he is just really worried. It’s both sweet (because he loves me and cares about me deeply) but also stressful for me because, well, I’m a Jew. I’m always going to be one.
My father is not well-versed in Christianity (nominal Christian, doesn’t go to church, but believes you need to believe in Jesus to go to heaven). I tried explaining to him that because I’m born Jewish I have an obligation to serve HaShem in this way and so I am doing what I am supposed to do. But that doesn’t seem to comfort him very much.
I’m at a loss for how to deal with this. He’s never expressed this kind of thing before, and I think it’s because he’s getting older. I don’t know what to do; I just need a safe space to vent, for people to maybe give me some advice or just support. It hurts me that my father is so stressed, but there’s not much I can do about it, right?