I was a zealous Christian (denomination irrelevant)… prayed the prayers at set times. Fasted often. Went to church on Sundays and other big holy days.
I think my doubt began when I started to read the Torah, past the Exodus narritive to be more precise, when it turned less into a story and more into a law book. I definitely saw many of the verses where it said that a commandment given was “perpetual”, “forever”, “or everlasting”… I really struggled with these verses when I was Christian. I asked priests how this could be, for example the Aaronic priesthood being “perpetual” and they gave me answers that didn’t make sense like “oh, well this is perpetuated by the Christian priesthood” WHAT?! It’s clearly referring to the Aaronic priesthood and a very specific Temple with very specific rituals, not some esoteric idea of an overall priesthood.
The Torah, once it gets past past the Genesis and Exodus narritives, is VERY unambiguous. Giving exact measurements for how things are built and all sorts of intricacies. So it follows that it is unambiguous that when HaShem says “forever” that really does mean “forever” – not until the Messiah says it’s fulfilled by his blood. That’s not forever, it’s been 2000 years since that happened. Also killed any chance of going to Islam, since they claim the Torah was revealed by God, yet claim it’s corrupt with no evidence.
Another thing not related to /r/Judaism was the massive inconsistencies in the Gospels and Epistles.
Worshiping Jesus truly is idolatry… Paul starts one of his letters (Colossians 1:15) off saying Jesus is the “image of the invisible God” – the English word ‘idol’ comes from the Greek word ‘eidos’, meaning image. Worshiping God through images (of which Paul claims Jesus is, an image of body and blood) is 100% idolatry… and it brings another incoherent belief: if you’re seeing the image of an invisible god then he isn’t very invisble, is he?
Another verse, which I encourage Jews use to keep fellow Jews alway from Christianity is this one that really shook my faith as a Christian, 1 Corinthians 8:6
yet for us there is one God, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and through whom we exist.
Paul (despite being blamed for divinizing Jesus) in this verse seems to switch his view: that the Father alone is God – Paul further differentiates between claiming the Father is the one God by place an “and” between this and Jesus.
The amount of inconsistencies in the New Testament compared to the Tanakh is insane… hell, even the amount of inconsistancies in the New Testament from the same authors is insane with Paul claiming Jesus is both HaShem and not HaShem at the same time.
In the end, just as Judaism is the ancestral religion of the Jews, I returned to my ancestral religion. I practice polytheism and idolatry and have no problem with it… yet when a religion claims to be against idolatry but the very foundation doctrines of it are idolatry… that I can’t in good conscience follow.
So yeah. Thanks for that wiki post – it really gave me the final push I needed to realize “what on earth am I even reading?”